Yesterday was surprisingly a lot better than most days. I didn't eat too much (except for the sour patch before bed)... what can I say, they're my weakness!! The G situation is still very awkward. Not much going on.
Today was not so bad. Not as good as yesterday, but not bad at all (regarding food). Now, G... This is basically controlling my life right now. I have people that are trying to help me, but I don't want their help!
I think most of me is just scared to actually be in a relationship with him because he holds the key to my heart, even if he doesn't want it. I've never felt this way about anyone. And I'm just so scared. It's sucks because I can't control it. I can't control my love for him, and he's the only one who can break me. And I know that he will.
Have you ever heard the saying that goes, "According to greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves."
I know that we were made for each other. I know he's my other half. But I'm still scared to know for sure. I know for sure that I only want him.
no one else...
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