OMG. I started eating and I never stopped. I just got home from a weekend away with my parents and I feel like the ugliest, most disgusting thing that ever lived. I have no idea how to not eat while I'm with my entire family!!! And a lot of the times it's not like I have to keep saying no, I just don't want to make them suspicious (I did a very good job with that part). Ugh. I hate feeling like a failure. And lately, it's like I'm failing at EVERYTHING. I love the way I feel when I'm hungry; when I don't eat. Why can't I just control myself, or think of the best lie in the world to make them believe that I actually have eaten, or that I feel sick?
Whatever. Tomorrow's a new day, I guess. Take advantage of it?
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